...resistance is futile....

...so i started ovulating again today, my body and my mind are at war! for so long i've wanted to start trying for the next baby, and finally the timing is right. jp's on board, settled at work, siena's old enough, ok financially you never think you're ready but otherwise everything is saying yes, yes, yes, go forth and procreate! and i'm saying no! i think i've lost my mind, and at least twice this morning i had to stop myself from joining jp in the shower.

remember all the reasons that this is a good idea, i keep telling myself, read your previous blog entries...and then this obnoxious little voice in the back of my mind chirps up, 'don't believe everything you read!' does that apply to things you wrote yourself, i wonder? damn it! do i have the strength to say no, not now, maybe in two months time! if i can just resist for the next 2 days then i'll be safe until this time next month.

and isn't mother nature such a bitch, she teams your ovulation with this increased hormonal surge which makes resistance seem futile, impossible. well i'm not making any promises, we'll just have to see how the next 48 hours go...think cocktails in bali, think shellfish and sushi and cocktails, oh and think cocktails in bali...