...made me think...

...so i went to a movie last night with my friend kelly, it was called 'love and other drugs', and wow what a deep movie, the jist of it is that she (anne hathaway) has parkinson's disease at 26, and he (jake gyllenhaal) a drug sales rep meet and try their best not to fall in love, it's sounds very formulaic but was surprisingly deep and got you thinking about what is important in life...

and it just made me think about everything that i have in my life, a healthy happy daughter, a husband that drives me nuts but I never doubt that he loves me, parents who taught me to be independent, hard working and respectful of others and support me no matter what, an amazing but crazy extended family, a beautiful home in a safe area, a huge group of friends with an interesting ever changing dynamic but who all have each others best interest at heart, a job that makes me happy with people that respect me, food in my fridge, a positive bank balance well except for my bond...

and i wake up every morning and without consciously deciding to, i worry about having more stuff, a pool, a bigger entertainment area, an extra fridge, new boots, another overseas holiday and more money. more money to save, more money to buy, more money to invest, more more more...

what i don't wake up an think, is omf i DON'T have to worry about... my baby having a terminal disease, my parents being financially dependent, my marriage being in trouble, my home being repossessed, having no friends to share my life with, being unemployed, being emotionally damaged from abuse, being uneducated, feeling hopeless...

...i think from now on, as much as i can, i'm gonna wake up in the morning and just be grateful, grateful for what i do have and what i don't have to worry about. enjoy today, it's like i keep waiting for the next thing before i'll be happy or life will really begin, wake fucking up, life is today, here, now...smile...

...so, not pregnant, woooohooo...

...never thought those words would ever come out of me in any format,
but as far as my master plan goes i guess that's what i wanted. the scary thing
is, is that there was a very slight chance that i was, talk about russian rolette,
i knew i shouldn't and technically it was a day too late but you just can never
know how fast those little buggers (pg13) can swim. not that i was secretly kind of
hoping or anything!!! but alas that crimson bitch reared her ugly head.

 so my blog heading should've have read
...guess what chantelle found in her knickers this morning...

ha ha, not a kitty! that was my kitty sushi by the way, nestled in jp's
undies while he was sitting on the thrown. I rescued her from an spca
type place. since i grew up with cats and have been catless for the past
4 years, i desperately longed to be love/hated by a kitty once more.
so after a lot of negotiating with jp, and him saying no! i emailed EVERY
shelter and breeder of siamese kitties in the western cape, and then politely
phoned jp to tell him my kitty was ready and waiting for me, and then i still
had the cheek to get him to pick me up from work and drive me to bellville
to fetch her. needless to say, karma's a bitch, sushi loves him/hates me!!!
not even a f!@#$king siamese anyway!!!

so i have officially given her to siena who adores her and carries her around like
a broken rag doll - sushi seems to love it! so be it!...