...so i went to a movie last night with my friend kelly, it was called 'love and other drugs', and wow what a deep movie, the jist of it is that she (anne hathaway) has parkinson's disease at 26, and he (jake gyllenhaal) a drug sales rep meet and try their best not to fall in love, it's sounds very formulaic but was surprisingly deep and got you thinking about what is important in life...
and it just made me think about everything that i have in my life, a healthy happy daughter, a husband that drives me nuts but I never doubt that he loves me, parents who taught me to be independent, hard working and respectful of others and support me no matter what, an amazing but crazy extended family, a beautiful home in a safe area, a huge group of friends with an interesting ever changing dynamic but who all have each others best interest at heart, a job that makes me happy with people that respect me, food in my fridge, a positive bank balance well except for my bond...
and i wake up every morning and without consciously deciding to, i worry about having more stuff, a pool, a bigger entertainment area, an extra fridge, new boots, another overseas holiday and more money. more money to save, more money to buy, more money to invest, more more more...
what i don't wake up an think, is omf i DON'T have to worry about... my baby having a terminal disease, my parents being financially dependent, my marriage being in trouble, my home being repossessed, having no friends to share my life with, being unemployed, being emotionally damaged from abuse, being uneducated, feeling hopeless...
...i think from now on, as much as i can, i'm gonna wake up in the morning and just be grateful, grateful for what i do have and what i don't have to worry about. enjoy today, it's like i keep waiting for the next thing before i'll be happy or life will really begin, wake fucking up, life is today, here, now...smile...
Amen!
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