...!@#$%^, but on the bright side....

...so, impatient as i am, after my last blog entry, i went and bought a pregnancy test, i wasn't going to, i was gonna wait til monday, but then i stopped at this budget centre looking for things for a friends stork party invite, and there was this crappy pharmacy and the next thing i know, i'm buying a crappy pregnancy test in really badly designed packaging. so usually with these tests you gotta use your first morning weeeeeeee, so i happen to wake up at 3am desperate for a weeeeeeee, so not wanting to waste the good stuff, i do the test with one eye open at 3am, and nothing!!! not even the test strip that shows that the test is working??? wtf! so now i'm pissed! so in the morning i scratch through the bin to double check and there is the one line, wtf, so i assume i'm not pregnant, !@#$%^ that crappy test.

now in my misery yesterday, my parents and brother and his wife, jp and i go out for dinner to nonna lina's,(the best italian restaurant in ct) and i decide, !@#$%^ the diet i WANT pasta and tiramisu, DIVINE! so i get on the scale this morning dreading the outcome, and hey! beyond belief i'm down! think maybe i should eat pasta and tiramisu everyday.

so, there it is , or isn't (that crappy test may have been faulty, but i doubt it). so sex will just have to be sex, no counting days, no propping myself up with pillows, no getting my hopes up, two whole months!!! on the even brighter side, it seems i'll be ovulating in bali! woohooooooo a bali baby sounds very exotic and romantic. mmmmmmm does that mean i'll have to think of a balinese name not an italian name...